may 14 2009

it was past 3am in the morning i thought i was dreaming but i wasn't..my cp was ringing..and wen i looked at the number it wasn't in my fonbook... i answered the fon.. i don't recognize the voice until he said it was HIM... i was so surprise curiosity filled all over me.. i asked him why he called..he was crying and i know he was drunk.. he said he miss me..the hell with him...he beg for me to call him he said it while sobbing...i took pity or maybe kagagahan i called him...he was crying..i want to scream at him,tell him how he hurt me and now he will bother me because he had no one to turn to?(but i know i will just waste my energy so i dont) no one to understand him during his downtime? i don't know but i dont feel the kilig factor anymore..maybe jp is correct it's only in my mind n lg....
hard to write the total scenario...basta i'm happy that his mesirable right now...i know its a bad thought but i cant help it...(smile!)

PUERTO GALERA...

Just got home from puerto galera... gosh it was so crowded..lots of people there...
we arrived at puerto past 5pm yesterday..we really had fun during the travel..nes and ervs were so noisy...hahahha
we're quite disappointed with the house that we rented..it was beautiful nice clean and airconditioned but it's 2-3 mins walk from the beach...but the facilities were good..we had enough space and rooms for all of us...
i ate kebab chicken and i really miss it..i ate 2 cup of rice..hehehhe

i bought a cover up dress for my two piece--i don't know the term of that..my officemates told me that i'm so skinny..which i'm aware of..that's why i'm eating anything now as nuch as possible..

boss robert had this obssession of taking up stolen shots..duhh... but i got even..hehehe i also had a stolen shot of him..mwehehhehehe

we had fun!!!
i enjoy snorkling...i know how to use the snorkle n..hahahah!!!

there was so many fish.. i saw a school of fish swimming under us..but the scary part was the sea urchins..loys of them!!! venus got panicked when we were tooo close at sea urchins..scary...but anyway i enjoy...i dont regret paying 3oo hundres pesos..worth it nmn...


but it was like bitin.. i want to stay there more..haaayyyy..next time..
ciao!! i'm going to sleep now... i will just continue uploading the pics tomorrow..

PANDORA'S BOX

so many things happened in the past few days..
so many revelations--some i couldn't bear...
so many lies were told..
so many pretentions and cover ups were done...
so many plans were made
so many painful words i heard...

but i know in the end i will get through with it..
but i'll make sure--and that's for sure--
i'll get even...
you will pay for what u did....
not now..soon....

i hope they will understand...

i'm still in pain right now.. i want to move on but the pain still lingers on me...
i cant accept the fact that we broke up because of 3rd party.. it hurts...

i hope i can move on soon..
i hope my friends will still there to understand me everytime i was like a stereotype talking about it again and again.. that's the only way i can let out my emotions and let out the pain i'm feeling inside...


i dunno where he is right now.. he didn't even texted our friends...

i'm still hoping but i hope my heart will stop beating for him....i hope soon the pain will end..and i will forget him and the pain he caused me..
but i still want to see him suffer..regret of what he'd done to me...

o i wish it's April already..cant wait for April to come..

ngaa?

ngaa nhimo m ni sakon mn? ngaa nd ka mg tubang sakon? mlakat ka n..ngaa nd m gusto mg storya sakon?
ngaa nd m msabat mga pamngkot ko? kg gna takpan ka p ka mga frends ta-mga frends m n lg gali?
ngaa ntabo n saton mn? palangga ta gd ka? diin ko ng kulang? ngaa nd m gd ko p tagaan chance p haw? kasakit gd ka dn himo m sakon.
ngaa n init ka gd? ngaa kulang n lg dw isumpa m n ko? ikaw ang ng baya sakon tpos ikaw p ang g arte nga dw ikaw ang dihado...ikaw ang n ngita iban..pero ngaa gn istorbo m p ko? ngaa gn tagaan m p o false hope? ngaa? nd ka gd gusto nga mk move on ko?
anu gd kadako sala ko cmu? anu gd kadaku?

just another day..

have a shift later..but not yet sleepy...
there are so many things running in my mind...
i'm still hurting inside... i'm trying to move on...
it's a long process i think...
we eaxchaned hurtful texts last sunday..
and i regret texting him..
it really hurt me...
i wish my friend we be here soon..
so i can say PAY BACK TIME....

i still have to wait for a month now..then i hope it will be successful..

u ruined me.. i will ruin you...
i really, really hate you....

getting into it..

on the floor right now, we have march madness..the more positive esca ur team got the more points u can have to win the game..
i got one today..i didn't fish for it,just like most did... so i can really say my positive esca is pure..mwehehheehe

2 days now that i didn't feel the pain much---being heart broken...
i can eat now...not that soooo depress anymore...but i really hate him..
i swear time will come you willpay....
you will regret what you did to me.....
i really really hate you that i don't care anymore whatever happens to you...


***subong ok lg n kay my mga raket ka p...raket are not permanent..panu pg n dula n n? tikalon n cmu...dw n pkita m gd sakon subong kg anu knugon nga wala n t..kag ikaw p ang bitter mg hambal to think nga ikaw ng baya sakon..tikalon ka n gd y..pwes ang tinikal m my katapusan kag ako na ang mtapos!
subong p ngalipay kamu...ubusa nu ang 1 k bulan nu p ngalipay..april comes tan-awon ta kg k pangalipay p kamu...pare-pareho gd kmu mga butigon...