window shopping..

yesterday i went out w/ my good friends again-- Cherie, fernand, jp and lani.. we ate at chowking..
suppossed to be we were going home.. but jp was still lazy to go home (don't know why.hehe) well since it was my rd ans also cherie's.. *pinagbigyan nmin c Bejar* we went to glorrietta.. and to jp's disaapointment--we walked from sykes to glorrietta..hahhaha an lau kaya.. at ang bejar ng rereklamo n n malayo..so, i always reminded hin n its his gusto...mwehehhehe bought zagu..window shop..we went to landmark.. i bought my liquid foundation.. cherie was about to buy a gift but she cant choose what to buy..so ending la rin xa nbili..hehhehe i took a bus home..
wen i arrived home.. i felt too tired..i put eficascent oil on my legs...sumasakit eh..hehhee sign of old age..mwehehhehe
but anyway i enjoyed!!! too bad i didn't bring my DiCa..sana picture galore ulit...next tym!!!

HEARTBREAKING

a minute ago i watched a video from yahoo headline news.. it was about a lion who being rescued by wonderful people who has a big heart for animals... it made me cry.. i miss POTPOT, BLUE AND DAESOH-- i don't know where are they now. i just hope they will come home soon.. i know they're very hungry and i don't know if they are thirsty or cold or what.. while writing this i cant stop my tears from falling.. oh God please guide my 3 cats to come home.. i miss them.. i'm very worried about them..they were spoiled brats and they like tho sleep on comfortable chair or blanket.. i miss bluey's voice everytime he makes "lambing" i miss daesoh 'coz everytime i arrived from work he's the one who will first approached me ang sat on my bag--it's like he's saying --**i'm ate's favorite..


actually the video was taken many years ago....it was 1969 when Jonh Rendall and Ace Berg saw a lion cub for sale in Harrods.. they bought it and decided to bring it home. a local vicar allowed them to raise the cub. they named him Christian.they had the video where they were playing with Christian. it's wondeful to watch--that's why i felt pain in my chest-- but christian grew so fast and his too big for their flat.. a year later they decided to let go Christian and introduced him to where he really belongs--in the wild. they brought him to Africa.
they missed Christian much.they decided to visit him but they were being told that its too risky-- he's very big and he even the leader of his own PRIDE. But, undaunted John and ace took the risk. They went to Africa.


Ater an hour of waiting they spotted Christian--they waited for him to saw them--and thid is the highlight of the vid-- when Christian saw he recognized them!! he was running fast and hug them!! he still never forgets!!! this really makes me cry hard..until now. he kissed and hugged John and ace. you can really see on his face that he was very happy.. he looks like kid who was away from home for a long time and suddenly saw his parents... He even intriduced his wife to them. he didn't lo0k scary. he looked tame.. i like Christian.i love him

LOVE KNOWS NO LIMIT.FRIENDSHIP LAST A LIFETIME..

i love this vid.. makes me cry..makes me love my cats more...and more...

--Potpot-- wherever you are, i know you already crossed over the rainbow, don't forget me..ate really really loves you. and until now i still miss. i know you have to go away because i know that you knew it was your time to cross over the rainbow. but i just wish i saw you crossing it. i want to be there. T_T


--Bluey and Daesoh-- please come home. i'm worried. i hate errol much. i'm sorry i wasn't there to protect you.i had a shift. i wish i was there. please come home..i'mwaiting..i'm very worried maybe other stray cats bullied you n and i know you two are very hungry n.. please come home..i'm waiting...

just holding on..

it's my RD today.thank GOD! i feel weak today.. emotionally, physically and mentally. i'm not happy with what i am doing..its just that i dont have a choice- as of now. if i quit i will receive a lot of questions and judgment.
i wish it will be over.. i tried to conquer this feeling but it wont stop..
i miss my batch mate. i miss our bonding. its totally different.
i don't like plastic people. inside, there's a lot of them. i don't like them. i don't like them. but i have no choice but to deal with them.
my wednesday shift was okay. the mood was lighter. i wish all my shift will be like that. i wish most of them will be in RD- always.. i don't like them. i don't like them.

i know this job is not my forte.. this is not for me... i can feel it... but for now i have to stick with it whether i like it or not.
if i found another, without a blink of an eye i will quit.

haaayyyyy.. npapagod n ako!!! i felt deprived from life....!

picture galore..!!

it's nice to have wonderful friends...!!!

today after our shift fernand,cherie,jp and i went out to eat lunch.. there wasn't a plan though--it was an on the spot plan..it was BEJAR's idea..and funny thing was we don't have money--only cherie had.. it was cherie who paid our bill and later we will going to pay her..heheheh we ate at Max's resto..the food was simple but yet we really enjoy!! i felt like i was energized.. it's nice to have wonderful friends and its nice that we went out again..haayy nkk miss talaga..well, next time again..i hope lani can join na..
we took pics using my cp and here are our shots..mwehehhehe

2nd day in production..

earlier it was my 2nd day inside the production. my TM was on RD,JP was absent..yesterday 3 of us were absent. kris had an emergency at home, JP was-- i don't know--didn't even txtd me or kris..

today i got a lot of help from my teammates.. i felt stupid.. i think.. i felt like i am the weakest link among the 3 of us.. i am still learning.. there were still some issues and questions that were new to me and i had the hard time explaining it to CH's..

my teamates were there to the rescue..but i still feel stupid... i kept asking why during our CAP those questions weren't asked? hell!!!

i was monitored today by our QA--she's pretty and nice--1st call passed 2nd call i had info anec..but it wasn't hard anec coz i only missed the 2nd bullet of disclosure.. i think i was relieved when i found out that most of our team,plus our TM was on RD-- i hope everyday she's on RD..kkkk bad me..

tomorrow is my RD til friday..yeheeyyy!! i have so much time to sleep..
i have negative feelings hovering me right now..i'm trying to ignore it.. my only motivation is --xmas!!! i don't want to be a beggar wen xmas comes...
i'm trying myself to hold on still..hold on.. then if it's time to let go..then let go... i am not happy with it anymore..i know why..but i can't tell pat about it..if i will.. they will hate me 4ever--- i will be their living example for newbies... bad example...mweheheh they will regret i was part of the team..

not now..but i know soon...

NOVEMBER 10-- MYD AY

yes, it was my birthday but, it wasn't a good birthday. i was sick, until now i still feel dizzy. i was absent too..2nd day in prod and i was absent. what a good start,huh!? i don't care if it would affect my stat or whatever my TM or my team members might think. i don't care!!

i was sick and i won't pressure myself.

i had a checkup today. DR. Pamaran prescribed a vitamins for me. she said i was the only thin csr agent she'd met..hehehe so i ask her for a vitamins--the n she wrote something which i can barely understand..hehehe

i will go to work today. i don't want to, but i have to. haayyyy...

i don't like this life.. i miss the training room.. i miss my wave mates,my friends and patrick... inside the training room isn't as heavy as inside the production..
and what i don't like is-- they taught us something-- 'something' that patrick did'nt want us to do. i don't want to do it because i know it's cheating.what will i do? what if i was monitored? how can i reason out? i don't like it.

the best thing i learned when i was in dance troupe is -- honesty. if you want to achieve something that feels good inside and be proud of it--DO IT IN A CLEAN and CORRECT WAY..

haayyyyy... how long will i last?

until december? i don't know.. im not excited anymore--- n turn-off ako..i was kind a dissapointed....

NOVEMBER 09 2008

it was supposed to be a happy day. but things turned out to be the other way. i was endorsed-(i should feel happy but i wasn't). it was my first day in production. my TM is scary. she's very strict when it comes to stats. i don't know if i can reach her metrics in the long run.. if i can't- well i have other options running inside my mind.
haayyyy... jaypee and kris did good- i think...i'm the FISH in this field-- technically speaking. it's my first call center job.. haay negative feelings covered my system right now.. but there's no turning back. xmas is approaching..
i was wodering how was cherie and lani.. i miss them... i miss them.. fernand is just a few steps away.. i can see him.. and i think his doing well too... haaaayyy..
i don't like it anymore... my teamates were very helpful during our first day.. i don't know in the long the run they will still be the same..
haaayyyy...

i'm too tired..

i don't know how long i can take it anymore. it's like anytime i will just quit!! i'm too pressured.too tired.. i felt like i'm getting thinner and thinner...%^$#@)# sh**!

i'm really thankful that HONEY is with us..and our new QA robert--i learned something from him--the credit steps (w/c i also shared with my friends and waivemates) i passed the other metrics. i'm just waiting for my sales rate and sales attempt.. i'm not excited to be endorse.. i want to quit..quit..quit..quit.. sam did... but... xmas is coming..i don't want to be broke on xmas day.. maybe my life at sykes is until december only---if i can.. i was dissapionted with one of our L2's. she's BOBO..i wonder how she became an L2. soooo incompetent..G_G_!!!
haayyyy sorry GOD i'm bad...
i'm planning to be absent today but cherie texted me not to.and i gave my word.so i have to fullfill it. i like my new friends at sykes-only my friends not sykes.clear?
sleep now,,nytnyt

OMG..i'm so nervous..

3.30 am later we will going to take calls all the time. no more PELET,briefing and de-briefing..and these calls will be monitor by our new QA..judgement day will be on saturday...haay ntatakot n ako..i felt like i'm not ready yet.....QUE SERA SERA.........

a relaxing and funny bonding..

i was stressed out and tired yesterday during our shift..i had bad calls..=( but..all of it vanished when we arrived at laguna..
yes, we had an out of town-not so prepared--escapade..hehhe but it was fun..
after our shift we headed to the bus stop where lani and fernand usually wait for the bus..it was a long walk--good thing it wasn't a hot afternoon... the bus was not air conditioned, but it was okie..we had fun during the ride..fernand really really really had an active listening..he heard the vendor calling lani "mrs."kkk.. lani and fernand were like cats and dogs during the ride..mwehehhe..i cant' stop myself laughing...heheheh
the view was beautiful...after a year it was my 1st tym again to go out of town..
anyway the bus driver was irritating..he stopped at alabang for a long time..we were all sleepy at that time but we can't sleep.. i don't want to sleep either--i want to see the view..?hehe
we arrived at laguna with no plan on where we were going to stay..we ended up at grand bay resort--it was cheap--and our room's name is england..mwahahahha
it was a small room but we fit in..hehehhe jaypee and fernand slept on the--how'd you call that?-the pull over lower bed--whatever! lani,cherie and i slept together--buti kumasya kmi..hehehe..
we swam for just an hour or two..it was fun because it was only jaypee who can swim!!! OMG c fernand k laking tao di marunong lumangoy!! hahah kahit todo effort nd umaalis s lugar..mwahahhaha!!!
i tried the slide(actually we occupied the kids pool,only us during that time were swmming) 4x..it was fun..the second attempt--nkkatawa n ipit ang right leg ko s hawakan!hahah it was a bad fall..good thing only lani and cherie were there..we also played "habulan" mwahahahah madaya c lani umahon s tubig para maging taya c fernand..we had fun fun fun!!!! ang saya saya!!!
and the finale...jaypee,fernand and lani had a drinking session..lani and fernand got drunk!! aso't pusa uli..ang daldal nla..mwahahhaha!!!
and lani said the cieling was moving and she asked fernand to stop it from moving..and even blaming the resort for being cheap that's why it was moving...mwahahahahah db nkktawa? ang cute pala n lani malasing parang cheerleader..ang daldal..mwahahahhaha!!!
i will treasure this escapade..i was with my new found friend that i really like..sana may kasunod p ha..

P.S.
kris sorry talaga akala ko kc cnbhan ka n fernand kc secret nga lg ung outing..mwehehhehe...next tym promis i'll make sure n masasabihan ka n..sori po...