2nd day in production..

earlier it was my 2nd day inside the production. my TM was on RD,JP was absent..yesterday 3 of us were absent. kris had an emergency at home, JP was-- i don't know--didn't even txtd me or kris..

today i got a lot of help from my teammates.. i felt stupid.. i think.. i felt like i am the weakest link among the 3 of us.. i am still learning.. there were still some issues and questions that were new to me and i had the hard time explaining it to CH's..

my teamates were there to the rescue..but i still feel stupid... i kept asking why during our CAP those questions weren't asked? hell!!!

i was monitored today by our QA--she's pretty and nice--1st call passed 2nd call i had info anec..but it wasn't hard anec coz i only missed the 2nd bullet of disclosure.. i think i was relieved when i found out that most of our team,plus our TM was on RD-- i hope everyday she's on RD..kkkk bad me..

tomorrow is my RD til friday..yeheeyyy!! i have so much time to sleep..
i have negative feelings hovering me right now..i'm trying to ignore it.. my only motivation is --xmas!!! i don't want to be a beggar wen xmas comes...
i'm trying myself to hold on still..hold on.. then if it's time to let go..then let go... i am not happy with it anymore..i know why..but i can't tell pat about it..if i will.. they will hate me 4ever--- i will be their living example for newbies... bad example...mweheheh they will regret i was part of the team..

not now..but i know soon...