see-saw...

Monday shift...lunch break ..
i checked my cp and was surprised that i got a missed call..
i checked the number...
it was his....!
my heart was thumping so hard..
i dunno...
excitement..
hope...?
i dunno...
i had the urge to txt him.but i control myself not to.if he wont txbk then i will be dissapointed again...
and i dont want to be dissapointed becoz of him.
i am trying to move and he kept doing this...
playing see-saw in my head....
why he was trying to call me?
for what?
he said i have to leave him alone(many times)...
he didn't feel anything for me anymore...
but why he was doing this..?
i hate him!!
i arrived home that day checking my other cp and found out that i have 4 missed call and it wa his number..!!
why are you doing this..?
you hurt me so much that i was about to give up...
you dump me!
so let me go now!
bother me no more!
i really really hate you...
i know it's not a good thing to say but i regret i loved you that much.....
you're not deserving..
you're not worth keeping for...
you don't know how to value the goodthings..
you only look on the negative sides...
i hate you...!